I am the man of the house and have a major problem with being around large groups of people. My wife it doesn’t bother quite as much as it does me. For me, it is pure torture to be put around large groups because it makes me feel unsafe. I like to be able to see everything around me that is what makes me feel safe.
My wife can say all kinds of things about me. She tends to feel as if I’m ashamed of her or that I really don’t love her because I don’t want to go to very many places with her. When in reality she should now know by now that I truly love her and am not ashamed of her or the kids. Even though, there have been many times that they have been embarrassing to be around due to how crazy they can behave. I have found that trying to do things with the family without large crowds around is actually harder than it seems because finding the right time to go to these places is tricky. There are many things that I long to do, but can’t because of my feelings of safety.
In saying all of this, having my wife and kids has made it a little easier to go out and about more. However, it is still a huge struggle for me. My family has become very understanding about it, but even as I write this my wife points out that the family wants more time with me. However, they understand of the situation.
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