I’ve had many different topics fall at the edge of my fingertips. Yet, I can’t settle on one topic that I really feel is WORTH writing about. However, this blog was honestly and truly started as a means to help me vent some of the things that have been weighing on my mind. I honestly and truly have gained a lot of relief from writing this blog.
I was watching The Conversation on Lifetime. One of the speakers talked about the fact that woman of today’s world need to be working outside of the home and focusing on their careers instead of focusing their efforts on their marriages and families. I’m sorry, I had a career that I honestly figured I was going to stick with until I retired because I truly loved it and I was making good money. I also seen potential of having the ability to achieve all of my other dreams as well. However, life became overly complicated and I physically couldn’t keep it with the demands of the job at hand. 🙁 My husband demanded that I quit or lose him since I couldn’t function when I was home and I was in tears due to being in so much pain from being on my ankle to long. Do I regret quitting?? Yes, I regret not giving a two week notice and finding out what they were going to offer me. I LOVED working for that company. Do I regret choosing my husband and kids?? NEVER!!!
I do miss working with a passion. I miss knowing that I’m helping to provide income for our family. I miss also having a chance to interact with other adults even if it is solely on a business level. I also miss having the knowledge of knowing that if something happens that I can stand on my own two feet. To hear a woman on TV basically say that I was in idiot for not choosing to work really got underneath my skin. Not because I feel she is wrong for saying it, but because I’m not pursuing with a passion to get back into the workforce like I would if I were single. Del and the kids love having me home and truth be told, I love it too. However, I’m really on the fence on where I’m suppose to be. I keep hoping for something to show me the answer.
Zeva has been one fussy baby. Of course, I was one according to my parents, and I actually expected she would be long before she was born just by how active she was in me. Considering she is the first baby that I’ve had the pleasure of being home with, this is a hard task to deal with. I don’t want her to cry herself into a frenzy, but in the same token I can’t hold her and have her entertained all of my life. I don’t know what to do. We’ve tried her being in her playpen with lots of toys, bouncy seat with toys, and various other things as well, and she ONLY wants her Mommy 9/10. My neck is gaining one heck of a kink it from having to do regular everyday tasks with her in my arms. I need to re find her baby carrier thingy. Of course, I don’t know if that would make much difference in how my body feels at least.
The kittens didn’t work out. Of course, I honestly didn’t think they would, but we promised Jimmy that we would try. The boys didn’t spend enough time with the kittens. The kittens didn’t want to be sociable either at all. Zeva’s allergies were going crazy since the kittens made their arrival as well.
Plus Peppermint is having her puppies any day now. 🙂 We know Zeva isn’t allergic to puppies.:) I keep praying that goes well too!!
Well, I’ve rambled enough. Jimmy goes back to the dentist in the morning, and this time I hope it goes better. He has major gag reflux issues.
Hope your having a good day.