Death seems be all around me lately. My grandmother-in-law passed away, and I barely got to know her personally, but from everything my mother-in-law told me she was so much like my own mother is was a bit eerie for me. I was with her some during her last week, and she looked at me with the same look in her eyes that my mom gave me when I told her it was okay for her to go.
I am a firm believer that people know when they are going to pass away. My mom knew almost to the minute. My step-father knew, and now it seems my grandmother-in-law seemed to know her time was up as well. I knew it was her time as well, but I honestly hated to think about it. I believe everyone else here felt the same way.
She impacted me from a distance. She didn’t ever really get the chance to talk directly to me because she couldn’t hear me and she couldn’t see to read what I wrote down for her. However, on the few chances we had to talk she managed to make my heart rejoice. She was from the generation that I most relate to. (That may have something to do with the fact that my first step-father is from the same generation, and he is a man who I highly respect and love and dearly miss!!)
The funny thing for me is she just had her birthday. My mom had her birthday a week before she passed as well. I do declare these two woman were related and didn’t know it.
It makes me think, what would people think or feel if I were to die. Would they rejoice or would they miss me? Would I have made a difference in anyone’s life for the positive?? I realize that there are times when death happens unexpectedly, but I also feel that far more people know than don’t.
It is my goal everyday to make a difference for the positive, even if it may seem like I come across as to straight forward and harsh at times. However, I have never just looked at what you may be willing to show me… I look deeper into a person. I see things that most people don’t normally see. I’ve learned that art because I lived most of my life trying to bury things I really don’t want to tell anyone.
What impact do you think you’ll leave behind?? Are you living your life the way that you want?? If not, don’t you think it’s past time to make the changes necessary to enjoy your one and only time on earth?