“For it is by grace you have been saved, through faith-and this not from yourselves, it is the gift of God-not by works, so that no one can boast.” Ephesians 2: 8-9
Today has been a trying day for me to say the least. I woke up from nightmares about Zeva. Then I go to the doctor to find out that I have the pregnancy diabetes. So, I spent most of the day in the doctor’s office. Only to be told that I have to go back tomorrow and again next week.
Then I get home to find that someone that I really THOUGHT I had forgiven for some of the things that he had done to me when I was younger decided to request to be my friend and has used others names and accounts as well to try to get connected with me. He also must have read my information on Facebook (which I thought I had set up for Friend views only), and left me a note requesting that we be friends. I was fuming mad about seeing him requesting my friendship. I’m still pretty upset over it. However, I’m actually more upset with my reaction to his request than the fact that requested it in the first place. God teaches us that we will be judged and forgiven based on how well we do it unto to others that need our forgiveness. (I don’t remember the exact verse, otherwise I’d quote it too.)
Prior to getting home I rented the movie called Grace Card because I felt led to watch it. I literally waited until after I took my bath to watch it, and I even debated watching it because I knew it was about forgiveness. I honestly believed I had forgiven this man for what he done to me. However, when I was put to the test of that forgiveness I found out I still have some ground to cover. This movie is a heart wrenching, but good movie!!! I recommend it for any family to watch. 🙂 God has the power to heal more than anyone can imagine. I do feel more at peace after watching the movie. Because I felt God talking to ME throughout the whole movie.
I may not be able to add this man as a friend on Facebook, but I do feel that I am not angry with him anymore. That’s more peace than I expected to have after seeing him make contact with me again.