This weekend Del made me turn my computer OFF for all except posting two PREWRITTEN blog posts for each blog. Otherwise, my computer was OFF. I don’t remember the last time I have not worked on my computer for that long. Oh yea, it was while I was pregnant.
I got to watch two great movies that both made me really think. I also turned to God and read my Bible for a longer stretch than normal. It felt good to reconnect with him on a personal level.
I watched two movies that I have had on my list to watch for a long time. One was called The Dempsey Sisters and the other one was Cutback. Ironically enough both movies and my Bible reading were ALL based around the same concept… Follow your dreams and trust in God to lead you.
Here’s the kicker, I have been pretty bummed out lately over blogging. Not because I don’t love it because of many technical issues causing me to not really see how much traffic we’ve had on this blog. Del’s brand new blog has had a lot of traffic and interaction. However, there are NO sponsored posts of any kind on his blog because we’ve kept it strictly personal, and when/if we do sponsored posts on that blog it’s going to be VERY selective. I didn’t do that right with Tidbits of Experience. Instead, I have let the money guide what has been on here.
Luckily our traffic has come back a lot because I have been writing personal stuff more on here because I find I have more to talk about on a personal level lately because I only have Jimmy in school right now. Plus Delbert is doing a lot better with his reading.
Not to mention the sponsored material I do have that I’m working on is things that really do hit home on a personal level too. So, this blog is starting to head back in the direction I envisioned for it many years ago. A lot of that has to do with the fact that Del has started his blog and he’s reminded me how much I miss and loved the personal aspect of blogging.
I missed building relationships with my readers. Interacting with them and having FUN at blogging. Blogging is a lot fun, but when it turns into a business after a while the fun aspect of it seems to have to take a back seat. Then it starts to feel like WORK again.
God reminded me that I don’t need to be anxious and literally staying up long into the night in order to fulfill the needs of my family. He is in control. He cares about me (1 Peter 5:7.) He will take care of my needs provided I strive to follow his will instead of my own. If I lean on him and use the talents he’s given me then I will be taken care of.
Now granted, movies and books are filled with wild fantasies that don’t often come true. However, I am here to say that God has given me the talent to write since I was little girl earning scholarships and awards from my writing. I hold back a lot when it comes to being open about myself. I KNOW I shouldn’t. My dream has always been to be an author of a big selling book. Yet, as you can tell from my little itty bitty ebook I just published my thoughts are solid but scattered at best.
Yet, I’ve gotten my feet wet and have come out of my shell. Now it’s matter of taking that HARD swim into the big ocean. I’ve been taking it the easy way into the ocean to the point that my swim back to shore doesn’t feel like I’ve done anything. (Watch the movie The Dempsey Sisters to understand that analogy.)
I want to enjoy blogging and I want to trust in God completely even when it’s scary and hard. God has NEVER failed me. Yet I continue to fail him! He’s given me this talent and I still believe he’s 110% behind me blogging because he continues to bless us on this journey day in and day out.
So, I’m grateful for my time away from the computer this weekend. However, I’m ready to dig in and write too. Plus I’m blessed with being able to help out my clients too this week. I’m so happy to say that!
What talent has God given you that you feel like he’s pushing you to use more?
3 comments on “Following God’s Lead”
Great post. There are days when I feel that God has given me the power to teach, influence and inspire… I used to be a classroom teacher and LOVED it.
Now I feel the desire and pASSION to teach MOMs how to be a healthy example to their family.
It’s really hard to balance making a living from a blog with selectively choosing advertisers. (Like we discussed on Twitter, I’m trying to find that balance for myself, too.) I enjoy your blog now, and am impressed with all the sponsors you’ve gotten, but I’m looking forward to reading more personal and more narrative posts in the future!
Thank you for the feedback. You’re right it is very hard to balance it all. I struggle with that one a lot.