Overwhelming

I feel overwhelmed on some days, and then other days I feel like I have to much free time on my hands. I do declare I go into super woman mode and get as much as I can do in a day (which is equal to about two days worth of work.) I could detail clean my house everyday, but with kids and a dog and a husband that tracks dirt in the house a thousand times a day and does his “manly” things, that it would be a never ending battle to have a clean house. So, I gave up on that being an option for me a LONG time ago. I’d much rather have my husband and my kids and our dog than have a spotless house.

I was raised up in a spotless house and wasn’t allowed to be a kid in it. When I lived there with my daughter, it was really hard…my daughter didn’t understand why she couldn’t be a kid anymore. It was so hard. I literally had to get really creative to keep her entertained, and I felt so bad for her. I love seeing my kids play with their toys and being active. Once I know what my hubby’s doing, I may just have to take my kids outside and enjoy our beautiful weather.

I can’t get over the fact that it’s almost February and we’re still running around with t-shirts on and feeling wonderful. To me it is really flipping me out because I know I live in south and we normally have great weather during the winter months, but NOT this great. We are normally begging for warm weather by now. Honestly, I pay attention to the center of the earth heating up news articles a lot more than I should. I can’t remember all the details of it to really comment on it fully. I just remember that having a huge impact on my young mind. However, regardless I know God’s in control and I am one of his children and he will protect me.

Jimmy decided to give me a hard time today with his school work. However, we got through it. He’s been in one of his ruts lately with his attitude and behavior. He gets in them, and for the life of me I’m not sure what triggers them. However, I wish I knew so that I could avoid them happening. When he’s like this I honestly have to stay on my toes all the time for fear of what he’s going to do next. I have a theory as to what causes it, but I’m just the “mother” and over analyze things to much. However, I am always analyzing why people do the things they do because I know that there is always more to a person than what we typically see at face value. Jimmy has had a rough life, and it’s only been on a semi-normal path since this past June. I had to fight like hell to get him to have a normal routine in his life and get to feel like he’s truly a part of a family. It amazes me how people that love him the most couldn’t see the damage that they were causing in his young life. They still don’t fully grasp why I literally went on that binder like I did. However, to their credit, they did back down and let me take control. I guess they have seen positive changes in Jimmy even if they don’t want to admit it. Until this past week, we’ve actually had a great streak!!! However, this is day three of his restrictions and him having time to really focus on his attitude and he’s starting to improve. I will never give up on doing what I can to make him a man of honor, who shows others respect, and gives everything he has to whatever project he’s working on. (I’ve had to really improve on my actions as well to be a leader of example.) Someone once stated, “It’s really hard to respect a hypocrite.” That hit home for me.

Another statement that hit home for me was this one….

Before you speak…..THINK.

T- Is it True?

H-Is it Helpful?

I-Is it Inspiring?

N-Is it Necessary?

K-Is it Kind?

The reason this one hit home was because I tend to speak without thinking. I don’t intentionally speak to hurt people or to bore them. However, I do both quite a bit. Then there are those times when I’m quiet as a mouse to keep from saying the wrong thing. Yet, my body language tends to give me away without me saying a physical word.

Del decided it was time we called Little Del by his given name…Delbert. So, we’re adjusting to that name change. It is only right that he be called by his given name since others will be doing it the rest of his life. Little Del was full of drama telling me what his name was yesterday when I would get it wrong. 🙂

Zeva is still spending most of her days sleeping. She is awake longer with each passing day, but I’ll be glad when she’s awake most of the day verses asleep most of the day. Unfortunately, even though she’s asleep most of the day there’s still no set pattern to her sleep so I never know when she’s going to wake up (except at feeding times.) She is starting to respond when I come to her when she is wanting something. I get that precious smile every time I’m coming to her aide. She follows me when I leave the room as well. I love it. She is growing up so quickly.

I’m thinking about getting a nice digital camera here soon. I want one that can keep up with my moving kids and one that allows me to upload pictures to the computer easily. I also want to be able to zoom on something from a distance. Any suggestions??? I also want auto flash too.

Well, I’ve rambled enough.

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Crystal

I'm Crystal. I'm married to Dale, and mother to Johnny. Some might say that my life is perfect because I get to do all the cliché wife things like cooking, cleaning, and decorating - but there's more! I also have many hobbies including needlework (crochet), sewing, and reading. My son's education is important, so we homeschool him together.

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