Many of us go into the new year with the desire to reach certain goals. I am no different. However, this time I’m trying to re grasp the concept of just living in the current moment I’m in, and not worry about the future or hang on to the past. Every situation, every person, and every minute brings different circumstances into our lives. I use to believe in this principal with a passion. I literally refused to worry about anything other than the given moment. I was a lot happier when I did that as well. However, some where down the line, I started letting my past rule my life to much.
I want to be able to make the most of every minute I have. I was raised to not waste a minute of time allotted to use in each day. I know that will also go towards my goal of losing weight. After being limited to what I can do for the past nine months, I’ve been doing as much as I can everyday. I literally am so exhausted when I go to bed at night, that I am literally passing out and sleeping hard.
I am already overwhelmed by my current class. It is already stumping me like crazy. I’m glad that it’s only the first day of class. I am praying that I can get a schedule worked out so that I can spend time studying like I want to.
Plus I also am super excited that my shows are coming back on TV this week too. However, lately, I’ve been literally taking ALL day long to watch a two hour movie (including commericals.) I have been on the go that much. It’s hard to believe I had time to work with as much as I’ve been doing lately. It amazes me how much time a baby requires. I’ve been wanting to take on the majority of her care since she’s been born because she is my last baby and also because I want to savor every minute of this. Currently, we are trying to see if I can stay home with her or if I do have to return to work.
However, if I do return to work, I’m going to get into a CAREER and give it all I have. I will also make sure I am with a career that allows me to have family time as well. I don’t want to get to wrapped up in a job that my family takes a back seat again. However, I do know there is a way to have both of them. God will give me the guidance I need when/if that time comes.
Well, I have rambled enough. Oh yea, so far, I’ve done well with the food ordeal. Fruit has been my best friend today. 🙂 My husband also made sure the kids know I can’t have sweets again unless he knows about it. He’s NOT saying I have to lose the weight, but he’s heard me say I want to do this so much that now he’s trying to be my support system and help hold me accountable. Especially during the first few weeks.