I love the fact that Zeva is in me, and that God blessed us with a little girl. However, this wondering if she’s going to come on time for me to make it to our court date on December 13th, for me to officially adopt my oldest son, it driving me bonkers!!! It doesn’t help matters that she keeps teasing me. She gives a few hours of contractions a day it seems like, and then she just calms her little butt completely down, and then at night she sends me through the roof in pain all over again. I’m only diliated by 2 cm, which doesn’t mean much to me. I was diliated with my first daughter at 3cm for three weeks before she made her grand arrival.
We asked the doctor if we could be induced next week (I’ll be 39 weeks on Wednesday), and she told me it wasn’t an option due to my gestational diabetes. So, I have to wonder if I’m going to make it out of the hospital or keep Zeva in me until after our court hearing. I can see it now, I’ll be in the court room doing the labor dance while I tell the judge that, “Yes, I desperately want to adopt my older son. He’s been in my care for over four years now, and he’s mine in every since with the exception of him coming out of my body. I realize that means I will be responsible for him until he is a grown adult!” Of course, if that is what it takes, trust me I’ll be doing it!! I’ve waited over a year and a half for this hearing to officially take place. He means the world to me. Granted, I gripe about him a lot and I push him to grow up more than he has. However, he’s been babied for far to long, and he needs to grow up. Plus I know that what I ask of him, he CAN do. He can become a solid 8 year old. He can exceed at whatever he tries to do! He’s extremely book smart. I do declare if I let him, he’d do school work from sun up to sun down and love every living second of it. I could honestly see him graduating high school in 8 years. It’s like a sponge when it comes to learning things. (Of course, Little Del is just as bad!! Little Del likes to be involved in Jimmy’s lessons too. Little Del whizzes through K4 work!) Jimmy just lacks common sense. (Of course, I haven’t been overly blessed with it myself!! I have grown to have a lot more of it over the past ten years, but growing up I can remember being told I didn’t have much of it either. So, I guess I’m the pot calling the kettle black in this case.)
Well, I’ve bored you enough. Please pray that Zeva does make her grand arrival before my court date so I’m not stressing about her and the court hearing both at the same time. 🙂 I’m not eager for labor, but in the same token, I am eager to hold my “golden gem.”