Like most people, I have the new year’s resolution to lose weight. However, I have been vowing that as soon as Zeva was born that I was going to lose this weight if it is the last thing I do. Especially since there is no reason in the world for me to worry about regaining it back. I do fear having another major life event happen and be going into a depression again and regaining it. However, I can’t worry about what ifs anymore.
I need to work on another personal issue I have as well. I am going to do what I can to fix that issue. However, I feel like a fish out of sea not truly knowing how to fix it. I want to change, but I’ve had this issue since I was six years old. How am I suppose to change something that has been embedded in me that long?  They claim that old dogs can learn new tricks, but I don’t know how they do it.
My husband and I communicate well with each other. However, even in the best of relationships, there’s still always some issue that puts a huge strain on a marriage. I’m the source of the strain in ours. I don’t feel my husband will leave me over it. However, I do want to see some positive changes in our relationship. However, it HAS to start with me. The sad fact is I don’t know I can actually make the changes I LONG to make for our marriage.
My husband has been there for me through thick and thin for over half of my life. He’s been everything to/for me. He is the only person alive who knows all there is to know about me, and I’m 100% free to be myself with him. However, that doesn’t change the fact that what he’s asking for should come naturally, but in my case, it has been the forbidden item in my life!!
So, my new years goals are to lose my excess weight (for myself–not anyone else) and to work on this one major issue that is putting a strain on my otherwise perfect marriage. It’s amazing how one thing can have such a huge impact on a couple’s life.
