I’m quoting my preacher….”Do whatever it takes to make your marriage work. Jesus gave it all. He gave it freely.” Artie Davis.
My preacher may have gotten under my skin, but he does produce one heck of a sermon that I totally enjoy listening too. I do declare that is part of the reason why our church has so many members in it. The kids love going to their classes. (I haven’t been going physically to church in a while, and once I get off of bedrest, I’m confident we’ll start going again.) However, today they just started producing live sermons via the internet. Well, I couldn’t get it to work on my computer, but I did get it to work on my iPhone. Guess what, it got my husband’s attention. 🙂 I thought that was totally cool. (My husband doesn’t go to church. He claims that he believes in God, but he does not believe he has to go to church.) However, the fact that I still listened to the sermon even though I couldn’t attend physically caught his attention.
This whole pregnancy scare has been putting a strain on our marriage. Any type of major changes does because both Del and I don’t like change, we like our routines and we like doing things our way. However, we’re human so we do tend to still worry about whether or not the baby will make it full term and come out healthy. However, the Bible states we are not to worry for God will take care of us. It also states that if we ask for it he will provide it. We’ve been praying for another baby for well over four years now, and I do believe God has finally granted us our request. I can’t for the life of me see him taking the baby away from us after finally allowing us to conceive it. So, I’m desperately hanging onto that faith that the baby will be healthy. I also keep reminding myself that Katherine’s little butt put me on my knees from day one and kept me there until she was born. She came out to be extremely healthy and beautiful and one strong willed child. 🙂 So, I’m also believing that little Ziva is going to be the same way.
It’s hard to not be able to do the little things in life. I just went to the flea market this morning and only walked up one row and back, and I swear you would have thought I was going to die from pain in my stomache. There hasn’t been any bleeding today, thank God. Once I got back to sitting down and was at home relaxing again, I was fine. I swear today’s sermon was hitting home because the preacher talked about spouses and parents having to do whatever it takes for our families so that we can grow and thrive to be the best we can be.
I’m having to pretty do nothing in order to ensure this little baby that hasn’t created it’s full heartbeat yet grows and thrives within me. I saw the little sack on the ultrasound the other day in the hospital, and the doctor stated it was living and doing well. That’s more than enough for me to want to protect it. (Yes, I’m a protective mother, sometimes to the point of smoothering.) I can’t understand for the life of me how someone can do an abortion. I use to could understand it, if the woman was raped and it caused a baby. However, now after nearly losing this baby so early on, I can’t grasp it. Even if the woman was raped, that baby is still made of a part of her as well and it’s incident! This baby is relying on God and me to keep it safe and help it grow.
I’m not staying in bed 100% of the time, but I am making sure that I do things in small doses. When I feel pain, I stop! I didn’t pay that pain any attention on Thursday while I was at work, and God gave me a warning. I’m heeding it.
Are you heeding the warnings that you have to step up to the plate for your marriage or your kids? Are you doing whatever it takes to be there for your kids or spouse? I know I’m personally struggling with being able to keep my connection with my husband through this stressful period of our relationship, but my arms and heart is open to him. I know we’ll get fully connected again in time. He’s already meeting me as much as he can right now. He’s definitely being protective of me and making sure that I’m trying to do what I can to take it easy. He’s made it clear that he doesn’t want me alone. He’s rough around the edges at times, but he has a heart of gold too.
Life is full of mystery. We all never know what tomorrow is going to bring us. All any of us can do is live in and enjoy the moments we’re in. It helps to remember that our actions do effect those around us. My boys are making sure my husband realizes that they are trying to grow up and be like him. They tell him almost daily that they want to grow up and be strong like him. I do declare they’re trying to be as open and willing to love others as I am. I learned that it does no good to build a wall around yourself because a person misses out on building wonderful relationships when they do that. We’re all going to get from time to time. Many times those who love us the most hurt us the most, but that’s also a testiment to the fact that they feel close enough to you to be themselves and know that you’ll love them and be there for them unconditionally. I don’t recommend you let people walk all over you, but I do recommend that you learn the value of forgiving and not holding grudges and keeping a record of what someone does wrong. NO ONE can change their past or something that they did! It’s not humanly possible. Many times we miss out on some great opportunities to be with those that we truly love because we can’t forgive or we’re to busy judging them for something they did that we don’t agree with. We all have the right to make our own decisions and learn from them. Yes, we will hurt others along the way, but nine times out of ten that is not something a person aimes to do.
We all have the chance to close gaps in our families, but many won’t take that chance. Then they complain when their alone through hard times?? My mom and I are a prime example….the first time she had cancer she wasn’t close enough to me to even tell me she had it because she literally disowned me because I married my first husband and got pregnant. However, after many strong letters back and forth between each other we were able to close that gap between us. Before she passed she was able to finally see a true glimpse of who I am as a person instead of as her daughter who made many mistakes growing up. My mom was great at holding grudges and she could rattle off everything you did wrong for years on end. However, I do believe her getting cancer made her realize that it wasn’t doing her any good to have those grudges. I made mistakes as a daughter, but tell me one who hasn’t (except for one impectular person I know, who I swear is a living saint.) I’m just grateful that we had the time to close our gaps, but many people don’t get that opportunity.
We need to do whatever it takes to fix our relationships with others!! Even if you are the one who is mad at someone else, but yet, you miss that person, be the first to apogolize. In many cases, there is harm done to both parties whether we want to admit it or not!! There is ALWAYS two sides to every story!! Time has a way of erasing many details of what truly happened. So the saying of time heals things is partly true, but it can’t heal all things by itself.
May you have a wonderful day. I hope you took time to thank God today for dying for our sins and rising again. 🙂