Life is full of so much wonder long before we’re even born. Zeva is reminding me of that fact just by how she moves inside of me. She responds to all the noises she hears all around us. When she hears her Daddy, she literally reaches out with her hand or her feet to be able to feel his touch, which he readily gives her. They stay embraced for a period of time through my stomache. Her and Little Del has a special bond as well, she plays the tapping and chase game with him. He will put his hand or his face on my stomache and she’ll tap him, and make Little Del light up with delight. Jimmy is amazed by seeing my stomache move and knowing it’s her. Jimmy just can’t want for her to make her arrival. There are times when there is so much excitement going on around me that she goes ballistic, and even though it kills me pain wise, I am loving every second of it because I know she’s responding to what’s around her.
We all respond to so many things around us. We all have a unique way of responding to it all as well. Some people have the knack of taking stress in stride, and others seem to get more stressed as things happen. For me personally, it depends on the situation and circumstances that happen as to whether or not I get more stressed by things that happen.
Zeva has been pushing like crazy, and I’ve been having those lovely Braxton Hicks contractions for the past 24 hours now. I went to the doctor today for my weekly check up, and my cervix is getting ready, but there’s no sign of me being in actual labor yet. I am measuring at a growth rate of 36.5 weeks. So, as of Friday, Zeva can make her grand arrival without anyone being alarmed or concerned. It’s been a long journey, but a fun one in more ways that I can express.
This is the first pregnancy where it was planned (granted I had given up hope, but I still kept praying for her.) This is the first pregnancy that I got to bask in glory over it happening. I got my first baby shower. I got to see her literally grow with several ultrasounds. My husband and my boys have been extremely supportive and as much help as they can be all through this. My mother-in-law has been excited about it as well. The only thing missing is being able to enjoy this experience with my parents. My mom passed away with cancer in June 2010. For some reason, my relationship with my Dad has reached a total dead end, and for the life of me, I don’t know exactly what all went wrong with that relationship. However, I figure when/if he’s ready to talk to me about it and when/if he wants to fix our relationship he will. However, now it’s gotten to the point that I’m angry with him, and am unsure what my reaction to him will be. Especially since he’s missed out of haivng a great relationship with two amazing boys!!
So, today as I sit outside with my laptop while the boys are playing all around me, and the sun is setting and giving my glorious views from my deck, I am filled with wondering about all the little things in life. Like why relationships fail, how some survive even though they’ve been put through the ringer, how God manages to control so many things around us, and how life has a way of always falling into place when you least expect it. God always provides what we need when we need it, even if it’s not exactly all we want. He is all powerful!!
I hope your enjoying the wonders of your life and all the little things in life. Life has a way of going by quickly!!