I just got done doing part of my course project for my college course. It is very time consuming. However, it makes me want to start pushing for my true dream to come true even more. However, honestly I’m scared to push for it because I’m afraid I would spend more time on it than I do with my own family. I fear putting anything else ahead of my family like my mom and dad have done me all of my life. When I was working at Waffle House, it consumed me and most of my time. My mom use to complain about it, and I always wondered why she felt she had any room to talk about it when she was hardly ever there for me growing up.
However, she always felt that I had more options because I can do almost anything when I set my mind to it. I am a fast learner when I want to learn something. I enjoy so many various lines of work that I can pretty much do any job there is and still make it fun. She felt I was working to much and not spending enough time with my family. She was right, but at the time I couldn’t see it because I was bringing in pretty good money.
However, after being home now for two years minus the few weeks that I worked at Chick-Fil-A, I must say it’s still a blessing to be able to be with my family as much as I am. I’m hardly ever away from my husband and kids. My kids do get to spend a lot of time with my in-laws, but they are here a good bit as well. Little Del loves being home and doesn’t stay away from me long. He’s truly a momma’s boy, and I love every bit of it.
I’ve had plenty of time to write to friends lately because I can’t do a lot of physical activities for long periods of time. If I do two hours of anything physically, I’m pretty much dead the rest of the day. It’s so annoying when I’m use to being on the go a lot more throughout a given day. However, I have found that my friends miss me as much as I miss them. It amazes me how time gets away from us and we don’t get to spend time together like we would like because there’s always something going on.
As we grow and our lives change we find that many of our friends are in our lives but not as much as they once were. There have been a few friends in my life that we were inseparable for a period of time, but then I grew into a different person or they did. I can’t say all of my growing pains have been headed in the right direction at a certain point and time, but I have learned from my mistakes. I feel blessed to have friends that have gone through all of those growing pains with me and are still in my life after over 20 years. 🙂 True friends are hard to find, but when you have them it’s always best to hang on to them.
According to What To Expect.com, I’ve got 29 weeks 2 days to go before I get to hold my little one. The baby is only the size of a little lime, but man if it isn’t kicking my entire body to kingdom come and back. I can’t see how so many woman can be pregnant and it doesn’t faze them one bit. I’m in awe every time I see other pregnant women just doing their everyday tasks with a baby on board. I’ve NEVER had that pleasure, and I guess I never will because this is the LAST time I go through this. My tubes will be tied or burnt or whatever else they can do to stop me from getting pregnant again after this little blessing arrives. I am so eager to have this baby in my hands. I’ve wanted this baby for so long it’s unreal.
Speaking of babies, I got to talk to my daughter (well, she’s really my ex-husband and his wonderful wife’s daughter now, but she’ll always have a place in my heart.) She is doing so good. She was looking forward to having a family picnic yesterday. I’m just so glad that I still get to have contact with her even if it is only a couple times a year. I got an amazing picture of her yesterday too. She got to talk to everyone except for my husband because he was busy working and couldn’t stop at that given point in time. She misses us, but she’s happy where she’s at. God reminds us that EVERYTHING we have is on loan from him and we wouldn’t have it if wasn’t for him blessing us with it. I hang on to that fact. Especially since before she was born I never got to fully feel like she was with me the rest of her life. However, she’s touched my life more than she’ll ever know. I treasure the time that I did have with her. I firmly believe that her and I both are where we are meant to be in our lives. She sounded excited about the new baby coming in our lives. She loved the girl’s name that we have picked out. 🙂 Of course, if it’s a girl she’ll have the same middle name as her and my mom and her mommy. 🙂 (I had this name picked out long before I found out that they had legally changed her name.)
It’s so hot outside that I can’t enjoy going outside right now without feeling like I’m going to pass out from a heat stroke. My poor husband has to work in it several hours a day. Tomorrow we’re all making a local run together. It’s so nice when we get to take off as a family together even if it is us “working.”
Here it is 12pm, and I’m still in my pj’s. However, I’ve gotten two loads of clothes done, cleaned the frig, made tea, and did two hard assignments for school. So, I haven’t been lazy, just don’t feel the desire to get dressed. That’s pretty bad when I would rather lounge around in my pj’s than get dressed. However, I think we’re staying home today so I don’t see why I should have to get dressed.
Can you tell my spirits are up today? I haven’t been this happy in a while. Being stuck doing practically nothing makes a person go insane a whole lot quicker. I don’t like feeling helpless. Yet, for most of my adult life that’s what I’ve been. First my pregnancy with my daughter made me ultra sick and in pain, then I have a car accident that breaks my middle finger on my left hand and my right ankle, and then I’m pregnant with my son, and now I’m pregnant again. All of which you can say I had something to do with it, but pregnancies are suppose to get easier the more you have right???? I honestly think that’s totally bull****. All three have been different for sure, but I swear this one is a girl if how it makes me feel is any indication. We’ll know in July if I’m right or wrong. My mother-in-law is gun hoo thinking it’s a girl. She’s already bought girl clothes and is working on a very girly quilt for the little one. So, if we’re both wrong we’re up creek to some extend. 🙂
It’s so funny, I originally started this blog to be talking about how my diet was going and how I was struggling to get back into physical shape, and about things I’ve learned from my life. Yet, here I am talking about the fact that I have a baby growing inside of me (which in turn has killed the diet idea and put me back on my deary rear.)
Life has so many twists and turns and none of us really know where it’s going to take us. That’s why living in the moment is the best thing we can all do! May your current moments be wonderful!!