“The world is full of women blindsided by the unceasing demands of motherhood, still flabbergasted by how a job can be terrific and torturous.” by Anna Quindlen
“God could not be everywhere, and, therefore, he created mothers.” By Jewish Proverb
I never dreamed I would honestly get to the day when I would see a positive result on a pregnancy test. I have been longing to be pregnant by Del AGAIN for almost four years now. I have always wanted two kids with him. That was our dream way back when, and it never went away. Granted we each brought a child into our marriage, but it wasn’t a child made by us together.
I loved my step-son long before I met him because he was Del’s son. When I am officially his mother, I will beam from ear to ear. I do hope that whole process gets done and over with soon.
However, I’m so utterly excited to be carrying another child again. I’m praying with all of my might that she/he doesn’t come on Dec. 3rd. That would crush me to a great extent. She (I’m going to refer to her as she because I believe with all of my heart I have my little, Ziva in me) is due on Dec. 16th, 2011. Neither of my other two came when they were supposed to.
I start my new job this week. I’m debating on when I should tell them the news since I did just find out officially today for sure. (I didn’t know for sure until yesterday.) I don’t want to spring it on them in my later months, but I also don’t want them to look at me any differently. The doctor gave me clearance to do everything I would normally do until he tells me otherwise. Which my first two pregnancy’s were vastly different. My first one had me sick as a dog from the day she was conceived. The other one, I didn’t know I was pregnant until three months into it. This one I knew early, that’s why I am leaning towards it being a girl again.
When they say you forget everything about being pregnant, that’s partly true. I did forget a lot about how awful it was, but I still remember the hard times. I’m scared to death of them coming again this time. However, they claim that it gets easy with every pregnancy?? Anyone want to tell me if that’s true???
It is soo ooo good to finally be pregnant. I have never wanted to be pregnant as bad as I did this time. The first time came as a royal shock because the doctor told me I’d never get pregnant! The second one was terrible timing, but I was excited after I got over the initial surprise. This baby has been planned and prayed/begged for so long.
My boys are extremely excited about being a big brother again. They are both hoping for a girl as well. They are precious boys and have grown up so quickly. I feel so blessed to have my little men. I’m feeling overwhelmed with gratitude to God for blessing us with another baby. 🙂
Life is good even when it’s hard. Praise God for our many blessings. Kids are the greatest gift a person can be given.
May this find you having a good day.