I do declare just when I think my life is going to go smoothly something happens to change the line up all over again. I either end up in a car accident, get pregnant, or lose a job. Now, it’s dealing with getting Jimmy the education he deserves. We gave an online program a try for over a month now, and I’ve been nothing but disappointed with it. Their site doesn’t work half the time, and I’ve only had contact with his teacher when I’ve forced her to have contact with me. He hasn’t been able to actually attend, but a couple of live lectures due to technical issues. I decided to try this school because it was ranked number 1, but when you do to the family forums concerning the school (after your enrolled) you can see many parents who are frustrated and upset with it all. I honestly regret not just putting him back in the homeschool program we had in first grade the first time. Now, we’re once again changing schools, and putting him back in the homeschool program that he had in first grade. He’s excited because we all know what we’re getting into. We are truly able to have the homeschool feeling and yet, have great interaction with his teacher(s). Plus this school we’re going to put him back into does field trips and get togethers on a regular bases. Jimmy will actually be able to move ahead when he has those days where he wants to do school work as much as I’ll feed him, and then on those days when him or I just don’t feel it, we can do the bare miniumim and be just fine. I like the fact that the teachers are involved in his education and have a relationship with us. I am not homeschooling Jimmy to hide from anyone! I’m homeschooling him because he doesn’t feel safe in school settings due to other kids being mean.
I thought kids were mean when I was growing up. I know I dealt with my fair share of being teased on and got in my fair share of fights as a result. I also dealt with people saying lies about me, and literally giving everyone the impression that I was something that I wasn’t. However, Jimmy talks about his short lived days at school, and they have not been good experiences at all. My heart melts. Jimmy is an unique child, and I can see how he could be an easy target for other kids. However, he’s not alone with being unique.
When are parents going to teach their kids to “teach others how you want to be treated?” I still make mistakes in my relationships with others, but I do own up to them. When I’m aware that I’m in the wrong, I own up to it. I’m not perfect, and never will claim to be. I do the best that I can, just like any other parent who loves their kids does.
I love having Jimmy home with me all day. I get to watch his eyes light up when something clicks that he’s learning new. I love to see his enthusiasim for math. I enjoy knowing that I get to push him to the max because I have the time to do it. I also love the fact that it’s only 2pm, and we’re done for the day, and him and his brother get to enjoy the beautiful weather outside and I get to be there to watch it. I don’t have to run the roads taking him to and from school. I do have to deal with his attitude on days when he doesn’t want to do his work worth a dime. However, he’s my son, so I know how to work around that, and what buttons to push to get him back on track. (If I fail, his Daddy doesn’t. Luckily, my hubby works from home too.)
There are pros and cons to every situation. However, when the cons outweigh the pros, we have to make necessary changes in our lives to fix it! I don’t waste time in making sure things are getting done for the good of my son.