“We all have big changes in our lives that are more or less a second chance.” by Harrison Ford
Well, a lot seems to have happened over the past week for sure in my life. I am amazed constantly about the amount of things that occur in my little ole’ life. I’m sure others can relate to that feeling all to well, but many don’t even stop to ponder things like this.
Since I’ve last written which was on Sunday, I had the pleasure of working for Chick-Fil-A only in their training compaticity and then one hard day of honest work. I have always known Chick-Fil-A is a wonderful company because I have NEVER gone into one of their locations without receiving outstanding service, but I never got to notice how things are on the other end of the spectrum. I didn’t find out I was pregnant until AFTER I got hired. (Knowing my history with my pregnancies, I know I would not have applied at all if I was pregnant when the opportunity came up.) However, my bosses were all wonderful about me telling them about it, and they were even excited for us. Well, their grand opening day was crazy, but wonderful all at the same time. I thrive on a restaurant being busy and having constant contact with guests. I was doing everything in my power to just focus on taking care of them. However, there came a point twice where I literally felt like I was going to pass out. (That may not have anything to do with the baby, but just the fact that I’m totally out of shape, but I did manage to work from 5am until 12:56pm with only a half hour break.) Anyways, on the second bad spell they sent me home. Which, I’m utterly glad that they did because once I stopped moving at a fast pace, I honest to God do not know how I made it home. I could barely move my body into the house and onto the couch when I did get home. Praise God my husband was home, and was able to assist me on getting on the couch. However, I was in so much pain I couldn’t stop shaking and I was in tears.
I honestly felt like a failure. I finally landed the job that I wanted and had every intention of turning into a career, especially after I went through all of their trainings. I wondered what I should do. I honestly prayed to God to give me some sign as to whether or not I should continue working or if I should quit.
My first pregnancy was hell on earth! I wondered everyday just about if I was going to live through it. There were times when it was pretty close that we were both going to be goners. However, we hanged on and fought through it. (My ex-husband was right there through all of it with me, and he was a true gem through it all!) We were blessed with our little girl. She was worth every bit of it! So, I’m honestly believing with every ounce of my being this baby is a girl.
My son didn’t even let me know he was there. It took my co-workers to tell me I was pregnant before I knew he was there. He’s my momma’s boy! I just pray he always stays that way. 🙂 He’s being such a wonderful gem taking care of me through this hard time. His pregnancy didn’t get hard until I was six months along, and that was just total pain and it was hard for me to do a lot of things after that period.
Anyways, back to the point,….Friday morning I woke up about 4:30am, and was bleeding. It wasn’t just a few spots, it was enough to cause me to be extremely alarmed. I thought all the way to the hospital that I had lost our precious baby that we’ve waited for over four years to get here. I felt guilty for working as hard as I did on Thursday. (Mind you I wanted to work and was loving every minute of it even though I was hurting.) My husband was there with me and was assuring me that everything was going to be okay. However, I vowed then that if the baby was okay that I would quit working. Which, low and behold, praise God she is doing well. The ultrasound revealed that I was only 5 weeks and 1 day pregnant. Which, that part doesn’t make a lick of sense to me since I thought a pregnancy test couldn’t tell you that you were pregnant until you were 5 weeks along?? Anyways, the baby is alive and well. I was just one of the 25% of woman who has bleeding. However, the doctor did tell me that I needed to stay on complete bedrest for a while.
We see our doctor on Tues. morning. So, I’ll know more then. However, all the blood work came back great and everything else looked good. The funny thing is I haven’t had a spot of blood since I’ve been home?? I swear that was God answering my prayer and telling me that I had to quit work if I wanted our baby.
So, I’m filled with gratitude that our baby is doing well. I just pray that she continues to grow and prosper in my womb. It’s such an amazing thing to be able to see your baby that early along. I look forward to the day when I can see her more developed.
I do have to do some running around today, but I definitely don’t plan to do a whole lot of it. I have to turn in my stuff for my job. Speaking of which, my boss took the news quite well. He even made me promise that I will stay in touch with him and bring the baby up there when it’s born. 🙂 However, I didn’t tell him that I hope to have my baby shower there in November if all goes well. 🙂
Well, I’ve bored you enough. Just remember God will provide your answers even if it is in a way that your not expecting. Hope that this Easter you will praise his name and thank him for all that he’s so richly blessed you with!!