Well, I officially own my mom’s house and land now. Now I have to decide what the best move is when it comes to the place. Right now the renters have the option to buy the place over the next three months, and if they can’t get the mortgage on it then we have to decide what the next step is that we’re going to take. My husband and I are actually undecided completely about what to do. The house is nice, but holds to many bad memories for me to be able to live there, not to mention it’s way to small for our family. It’s an odd feeling to now know I officially own it all. I’ve been making the mortgage payments on it, and know I could continue to do it if I had to. My husband and I would like the money selling it could give us to add on and finish the remodeling we want to do to the house we’re in. However, we’re starting to think that maybe keeping the other place may be beneficial too, IF the current renters don’t buy it. It’s a major toss up as to what to do. I just hope and pray that God answer’s my prayers and tells me what I should do with it. If there aren’t tenants in the house maintaining the place then it will get run down and I will get depressed over it. I may not like the house at all, but I love the land and the location with a passion. Not to mention all the wonderful neighbors around!!
I still haven’t fully grasped the concept that I am actually pregnant. The pregnancy is finally starting to ease up some. I’ve been able to eat the last two days and actually be human some more. 🙂 However, I still can’t handle doing as much as I normally would be able to do. I’m noticing many changes to my body too.
I’m debating on breast feeding my baby. I honestly wanted to do it with my first baby, but it caused her to have a severe case of jaundice, and I’m afraid of that happening again with this baby. However, I spend a lot more time outside now than I did with my first pregnancy. Not to mention, I feel stronger this time around than then??
Life is full of questions and changes. No one can be completely certain about the moves they make in life. Nothing is guaranteed except that you will live and die. I use to live in fear of the unknown. I lived with insecurity all the time wondering if I was going to lose the person I was with, but I realized that regardless I’m still going to make it. My life will be different yes, but I will make it. It amazes me how much more I enjoy my life now that I stopped living in fear of the unknown. Yes, I’m concerned about the changes taking place in my life right now, and am doing my best to take my time in making my decisions. However, I’m making sure that whatever decision I make I will not regret it later on. I have enough regrets in my life. That actually was one of the final statements my mom left me with, “Don’t live with any regrets in life.” The only regret that haunts me to this day is not marrying my current husband back in 1998. However, he has forgiven me and we are definitely getting stronger with each passing day. We still have obstacles that we deal with like any couple does, but we get through them together with LOTS of communication.
Do you have any regrets in life? Do you think you can make amends for them?? Life is short, and definitely not guaranteed to us. We need to make the most of every day we have and work today for tomorrow, but not forget to enjoy the moments we’re in. I can’t preach that enough. Family and close friends are irreplaceable!!! Money and all the materialistic things in life can be gotten again by hard work and dedication. However, do you want to spend all of your living breathing days gaining those things or do you want to be remembered for spending time with loved ones? Our kids need us to take the time to raise them. Our spouses need to know that we love them and cherish them. Our parents need us to give a helping hand as they age. Our friends need us to be there for them as they go through hard times or even to rejoice during the good times.
I have a close friend that has been my friend for as long as I can remember did something the other day that truly made me extremely happy. There is no way I can express just how much I appreciated it. She came to my house because I was bedridden and having issues with my pregnancy (I was bleeding again and in pain.) She cleaned my entire house (swept floors and did the bathroom and a the few dishes that were in the sink.) My husband has been doing a lot, but with him working 10-14 hours a day and going to college, and tending to the kids and I, it’s been rough. However, we had an important visitor coming and she knew it, and helped get the house in complete order for the visit. That’s a prime example of taking time from a busy schedule to be there for a friend in need. It made a world of difference in my life and the life of my family!!!
We all can make a difference in someone’s life in some form or fashion. Even if it’s something as simple as passing on a smile to someone or stopping someone who looks like they need a hug and actually giving it to them. Little things make all the difference.