I do declare being stuck in bed again and not being able to do the normal things that I normally would be doing such as laundry (which is piled up like crazy right now) and dishes and playing with my boys and just being mobile is really getting to me. The doctor ordered me to bed rest the last time I saw him, but I have been still doing things along and along, but after this weekend, I realized that the baby just can’t handle it. I don’t understand why I have these issues when I’m pregnant, but I do. Of course, I was told I’d never have kids, so I feel utterly blessed to be pregnant in the first place.
However, when your stuck in bed all you have time to do is think. For me to think, that becomes a dangerous thing! I am happy with my life. My husband has been pulled in fifteen different directions lately, so he hasn’t had time to really do anything around the house. However, he has been trying to keep it going little by little. It’s hard for him to work, tend to the kids, tend to my needs, and still do school work. Since he wants nothing less than a 4.0 GPA, he has to work really hard to keep it.
So, as I lay there, I’m thinking about the things that aren’t getting done. You don’t realize how much you do in a day until you have to slow down and do NOTHING for a day. My house is NEVER perfectly clean because I am always having kids, the dog, and others running in and out of the house all the time. I have learned over the years that a house that is perfectly clean is not homey. My husband has been doing things to this old house little along and along, and we still have dreams of doing a lot more to it as we can. Yet, this house still gets criticized all the time because it’s not perfect. Let me tell you, this house itself may not be perfect, but it is filled with LOTS of love and devotion to each other.
Plus I have been doing a lot of day dreaming. One of my assignments for my class is to come up and with a service or a product that is needed. I keep going back to me creating a farm for kids who are a juvenile delinquent and putting them through equine therapy at my ranch. I still have that dream, and have had it for most of my life. However, I don’t see how I can ever make it come true. Equine therapy truly works and it makes a world of difference. I can’t explain it well enough for me to do it justice, but I am living proof of the amount of difference it can make in a person’s life. God blessed me with a talent with horses and with people who are troubled, but I have not been able to pursue that passion within me.
Every time I come close to changing my major in college, something stands in my way. I wonder if that is because God is opening a huge door for me that I’m just not seeing right now?? All I do know is my eyes, ears, and other senses are paying attention to every detail and am waiting for his answers.
Do you have a dream that you never pursued, but yet still nags you on a constant bases?? Do you feel you should be doing something about it?? Just food for thought. I hope this finds you doing well.